5 years ago today, I was sitting in a hospital waiting room. I was waiting for my name to be called. I was waiting to go into surgery to have the cancer removed that had invaded my body.
It was early morning. I was not nervous or even scared, which I found odd when I thought about it afterwards. My husband, on the other hand, was extremely nervous. I remember telling him not to start crying or I would too. He had a list of people he was to call when the surgery was over, which I reminded him about. He walked with me to the operating room, then went to a different waiting room.
I can remember thinking how glad I was that it was finally the day. It seemed to take forever to arrive. From the moment I heard the words “you have cancer”, I waited anxiously for the day when it would be removed. I had complete faith in my oncologist and his team.
I remember cracking jokes just before the meds knocked me out. I was laying on the table, and my arms were outstretched because they were trying to put the needles in. I have tricky veins so they were having problems. My arms were strapped down. Then the table started moving up. I joked that I felt like a scientific experiment. A few people laughed. I thought it was hysterical. Of course I was drugged up LOL.
The next thing I remember is coming out of what felt like a very deep sleep. My throat hurt. A lot. And Dan was standing next to my bed. I’m pretty sure he was crying. He wasn’t allowed to stay long. I remember asking for ice chips because my throat hurt so bad. I remember being in a big room. I assumed it was the recovery room. I think at one point someone told me they were waiting for a room to be available to move me to. I’m pretty sure I just went back to sleep. I remember waking up a couple of times, but not for very long. If I remember correctly, I did ask for my glasses at one point.
Anything else that happened that day, I don’t remember.
I would later learn that the surgery went very well. I would spend 5 days in the hospital. And it would take me several months to feel pretty normal again.
It would take a couple weeks to find out if they got all the cancer out with the surgery. I was really hoping they did. I didn’t want to have to go through chemo or radiation. I was nervous when I finally got the call from the doctor. They got it all and I would not have to have chemo. I’m pretty sure I cried. I would have to have regular followups for the next 5 years, but I was okay with that.
So today is 5 years since my surgery. In a few weeks, I’ll have my last followup with my oncologist. My oncologist and his team have taken really good care of me. They have treated me like a person, not just a patient. And to me, that is an amazing thing.
So today, on my Uncancerversary, I want to say …
Fuck you, cancer!!